Like A Pair Of Bottle Rockets Mixtape:
Don’t Sleep Too Long
1. The Olivia Tremor Control - NYC-25 (Dusk At Cubist Castle)
2. Youth Lagoon - 17 (The Year of Hibernation)
3. Crosby, Stills & Nash - You Don’t Have To Cry (Crosby, Stills & Nash)
4. Real Estate - Municipality (Days)
5. Animal Collective - Turn Into Something (Feels)
6. tUnE-yArDs - Fiya (BiRd-BrAiNs)
If In The Aeroplane Over The Sea is an album that meets you in your darkest places and gives you hope that you can escape them, then Dusk At Cubist Castle finds you in your highs and take you higher than you knew was possible. “We feel ok,” as a revelation, is just as potent every time. It’s an album of details that seem to know you personally – the way the vocals slow down during “juice and coffee in the morning,” the moment just before “how much longer can I wait.”
What do you do when the magic’s gone?
I saw Olivia Tremor Control last fall in New York, a show that might be my favorite of all time. Entering le poisson rouge that night as The Music Tapes clanged through the audience with their bizarre musical contraptions, it felt like a time machine to a place I had only dreamed of – and I was allowed to stay for the whole evening.
I had loved this album for years already, but after that show I became obsessed, particularly with the album’s closer, NYC-25. It was around my one year anniversary of living here on my own, and I was in a downward spiral, feeling more and more detached and dissociated from anything real. In my moments of desperation, I clung to this song for dear life.
I don’t like listening to songs on repeat, so I built this playlist to house it. At the time, I didn’t think much of my song choices, just picking tracks I thought fit the aesthetic. Now, I can’t believe how clearly what I was going through is visible through my selections: my yearning for freedom from my own mind and desperate longing to hear a comforting voice. These songs, about moving past hardships, getting better, hope in the face of hopelessness, made me feel like someone understood. With OTC to usher me in, Animal Collective’s urging to change myself for the better and tUnE-yArDs relentless strength in the face of self-doubt, this playlist didn’t save me from depression, but it made me keep trying.
As someone once said: there is no growing in knowing where you’re going.